I met someone online yesterday that I have a good feeling about. The only this is that he's in Witchita, Kansas, which is "not in the plan." We'll see...

I'm not very happy right now. I guess the manic stage is over. It seems like I can't take care of myself or do the bare minimum like wake up on time or work out or ever shower or floss. And I feel horrible about yesterday; I was supposed to go to Costa Mesa and squat to see a counselor, but I sprained my foot on Sunday and used it as an excuse to stay home and masturbate all day, yet I called into work mid-day to "check in" and say I was still up in Orange County waiting for a counselor. Part of the AA program is to admit mistakes and make ammends when necessary. I so don't want to tell anyone about this, especially work. And I'm not on that stage of the program yet. What do I do?

I also injured my back on Sunday. I was playing volleyball with a bunch of people from AA, and I fell twice, once twisting my back and another time spraining my ankle. I want to see the chiropractor, but because of missing Monday and because I was late two times last week while my boss was out of town which she called me on, I'm hesitant to ask for the time off. I will try to schedule an appointment around lunchtime so I can use that time. I can't do this now, though, cause I'm running low on gas and I'm still waiting for my new ATM card; I left my old card at an ATM accidently. So I'm conserving gas where possible since I have $5 cash until my ATM card arrives.

I'm just a mess.