My family dynamic and my lack of connection to it has been really bothering me lately. I've had several dreams about my father's side of the family; in one dream, I'm carrying my baby sister and my father tells me that no matter how many times I fall down my sister is not to touch the ground. Of course I fall many times, but I'm always careful that she doesn't get hurt. It's just another reminder that my needs and general welfare were never my father's concern.

I'll write more about this later.