I just got home from the sober dance. Man I was so uncomfortable. No wonder I drank so much! I left before the midnight hour. Guess I get to spend it at home with you.

Happy new year!

Wow, this year has been full of work. But I have a tendancy to think it was not enough work, or not quality work. But 2004 was full of spiritual growth if anything else. I have 112 days sober today, the longest period of sobriety I've ever had. Moo Cat died during the fall season. And that's really it when i reflect on the year. I wish there was more to it, but there really hasn't been. But this was the year I realized I am an alcoholic, even if I have periodic thoughts that I'm not: it's just my alcoholic thinking. Oh I've also been on atkin's this past month and lost some weight: I'm down to 225 from 240. I upped my carb intake some cause I want to work out, but I didn't go the gym today since it's raining; I don't want to deal with getting wet and the cold.

Here's to 2005. Just like I haven't sat down and worked out a budget, I haven't really thought about the agenda for the new year. Things to consider: school, sobriety, sex, therapy, work, a new place to live, moving completely to OC and giving up my SD place, making new friends in OC, repairing my credit, working out and losing weight. I haven't thought about new years resolutions either. I don't think I did last year either. But that's ok. I think I'm spending the night with people in AA to ring in the new year. But part of me wants to spend it at the Loft where I've run in the past four years; it's sorta a tradition. But it will be better to spend time with other people who want to stay sober.

I hope everyone has a safe, happy new year. And I hope that relief comes quickly to all affected by the Tsunami in the Indian Ocean.