I'm at the library before Master Chorale meets, some girl walks into the library and sets the alarm off, the type of alarm that would annouce to everyone that the alleged theif has hoisted a book unchecked, and this dorky volunteer student librarian tracked her all through the library trying to find out why she beeped - he looks somewhat like Stephen King and how I would imaging the author to walk...hunched over a bit, somewhat lurching as he tredded. Anyway, this "cool" guy at the computer was scoffing under his breath while the dorky guy persues the perp, all the while straining to watch his path as he chases the girl. Laughing, just laughing at the dork. And here I am, a dork of sorts, straining to see this "cool" looking guy, laughing at the cool guy under my breath. Is that ironic, or is that a common thing?

I am sorta upset that all these 19 and 20 year old college guys look as adult as they do - they are men! I don't see myself as a man, and I know I'm not a boy, somewhere in between. Boyish looking, man body. But these guys are just rugged, reeking of masculinity. I was coming out of the bathroom after basically popping a zit (an common adolescent thing) as this uber he-Man lumbered in to take a piss, uh-rah! Big, bulky guy. And me, kinda scurrying by. Well not scurrying, but not really making any waves in the pool, either.

I'm not running at the moment; I've been on the no-carbs thing for over a week, and have no energy to expend any activity really, let alone running. I was listen to Jeff and Jer this morning and they were discussing hydroxy-cut or something, and how it gives one energy to go to the gym and be more active while cutting down on calorie intake. I think I can use that and create a diet suited for my needs and goals. Something worth looking into.