I need to get my medications refilled. I'm on day 2 or 3 of cycling off Effexor because I ran out. I need to describe how it feels. I'll be walking and suddenly struck with this icy vertigo chill starting in my head then spreading wake-like through the rest of my body, all lasting for about half a second.

It's weird I can't remember if it was Sunday or Monday that I last took Effexor. My memory is starting to go. Actually, it's not my memory; I'm just so overwhelmed with things to do and remember that the "lessor-priority" things are being premptived.

I'm getting irritated with going to meetings too. I met with my sponser yesterday and brought up some issues I had that occurred while doing a worksheet on the first step. I don't feel like I've hit my bottom, and I can't "utterly" surrender to the fact that I'm an alcoholic and that I cannot overcome the unmanageablity of life with the help of a power greater than myself. I tried communicating this at a meeting last night and felt like I was rambling and unconnected. Maybe it's from cycling off my medication. I don't really know. But tonight when I get home I'm going to find my new prescription and get it filled.

I like this new format for Blogger. I'll add to my ever-growing list of things to do to explore more of the features of blogger and to update the look/feel of my site.