I haven't been posting at all lately; to be honest, I haven't been really motivated. I'm going through a severe depression right now. I feel like I'm treading water, barely above the surface from drowning.

I bought a 1969 Ford Custom for $200 on February 19th, and had it less than 16 hours before it overheated on the University Ave. offramp on the 163. I came back an hour later with David and filled the radiator with water and anti-freeze discovering that one of the water hoses busted. The car was able to start, but as I tried to merge into traffic, the car completely stalled and wouldn't start again. The engine would click once, and then nothing - I could see that the fan would jerk once and then nothing as I tried the ignition since the hood of the car was up. David added me to his AAA account and I had the car towed back to his place (I bought the car from his neighbor, this crazy, drugged-out Italian Lesbian, as belligerent as my mother). David's roommate Greg, an new Iowa transplant, looked the car over the next day and informed me that the head gasket blew, so I had the car towed to San Diego Auto Smog and Repair Centre, hoping that I'd have the car back within a week. I was prepared to spend $800 for a total car overhaul, and that day, I even secured car insurance, making a $244 down payment to East Group Auto Insurance. However, the next day the mechanic tells me that the engine needs to be repair completely, running about $2,700. The following day, I had my driving test and passed, so now I'm licensed to drive - and I had car insurance, but no longer had a running car. I was going to call Ecology Auto Wrecking ("we pay you cash for your junk car!") to come pick the car up, but a friend of Dee Ann (and a Loft acquaintance of mine) named David wants to buy the car from me. So I had it towed today to my house, and David will pick it up sometime in the near future. I cancelled my insurance yesterday, since I won't have a car for at least 3 more months.

I also withdrew from school - yet again. This is like the 6th straigh semester that I've had to do this, and for basically the same reason: no transportation. I'm so upset; not only will the prerequisite classes I planned to have completed this semester not be satisfied, I've needlessly spent approximately $500 on textbooks and supplies.